February 4th, 2020
Depression and anxiety crept in while I was in my early 20’s. Before that, I took my health for granted. But, working as a fitness professional and dietitian, I felt under immense pressure to look, eat, and live a certain way. So when I started to feel exhausted all the time, hopeless, & binge eating every day to numb out from everything I didn’t want to deal with around me, I went deeper into a shame spiral.
“This was NOT how someone who is supposed to know what to eat and how to exercise behaves,” I would tell myself. I felt like I was always failing. At the time I really had no idea what was happening. All I knew was I was I was a shell of the person I used to be, and was too embarrassed to say anything to anyone about. I felt there was nothing to look forward to, and I felt like there never would be again.
One day I made a connection after I dragged myself to a yoga class that I felt significantly better, lighter, more myself than I had in a year. Movement, the thing I took for granted previously, ended up being the thing that helped me lift myself out of depression. My purpose became healing myself, and my anti-depressant of choice was moving my body
Founder, The Warrior Evolution